So you sit there and you wonder what you should do next. Now, we can leave behind the leadership/follower dilemma…
We shall talk now about ourselves only, especially when we feel alone.

Feeling alone is quite an interesting state of mind.
It is a particular set of strong emotions, along with a strange dichotomic set of tendencies: to seek help,
and yet, to rely on yourself, to get rid of you clothes and masks, of all that baggage of memories and frustrations,
to get rid of everything you’ve been told and still grasp the meaning of your own life.

Being alone is not distracting. Nor is it a burdain. Few can handle loneliness in a constructive way. It’s a sort of self-assumed pseudo-autism.

Loneliness is the beginning of any change at all. It is a starting point and a singularity.
You have been alone at birth, in the sense that
you could not understand, communicate nor do something about the world around you.

And the care you received, you could not control nor ask for it. The world, presented to you in bits and pieces
was misty, clueless and sometimes agressive.

You did not know yourself and you could not find yourself either. No doubt, even then , you must have had
that strong inner feeling, something like an amplified proprioceptive sensation of you whole body, that we
most often have when we turn back to ourselves…

And this is what I call the serene solitude of your coffee break.